COMPLICATED COMPLICATION
Words don’t really seem to strike me right now but the feelings do which have forced me to write once again… not just for the sake of keeping the words flowing… but to really say something… which is out of my thought process… which even I don’t seem to understand… except for the fact that I just want to write!!!

It was just yesterday that I FINALLY got over with my exams… “so many shocks… n so many insults in just 2 months”… I bet we students deserve an award for the trauma we go through!!!

So, coming back to myself… as I finally step out from the traumatic period of 2 “long-long” months… I wanted to do everything I expected I will… n to begin with I got the movie tickets… my further plans included going to my friends… partying… sleeping… reading… in short enjoying my life to the fullest…
But I don’t know what It was…that struck me so hard yester night that took away all the beautiful thoughts from my mind!!!

I mean I no more felt like enjoying… all I needed and I still do… is perfect isolation…
From everything… from everyone… I need a moment of silence when I can just introspect and do nothing else… but the SILENCE around me seems to disturb the SILENCE that I want!!!
…Strange yet true!

Its not that I m being negative about anything… its not even that I m feeling super good… neither am I feeling normal… I am just feeling confused… confused about what is so confusing to me???...

What Is it that has held me so tight from being the way I want to be…
What is it that is stopping me from enjoying my life…?
I don’t seem to find any answers… and I don’t even think I really want to find them!
I just want to let be… but still want to change…
I feel like socializing a bit… but at the same time… feel lyk standing aside…
I want to uncomplicated… but am still complicating myself…
There is really nothing about which I should be thinking so… but still the confusion has taken a hold…!

I just hope I simplify myself soon…
And I wish you’ll pray for the same!!!

at this time as many of my friends are falling victims to this depression which i was facing a couple of days back... i want u all to read the following lines from a song call THE CLIMB... i drive strength frm it... i hope it helps my friends too...

THE CLIMB

I can almost see it

That dream I'm dreaming

butThere's a voice inside my head sayin,You'll never reach it,

Every step I'm taking,

Every move I make feels

Lost with no direction

My faith is shaking

but IGot to keep trying

Got to keep my head held high

There's always going to be another mountain

I'm always going to want to make it move

Always going to be an uphill battle,

Sometimes you going to have to lose,

Ain't about how fast I get there,

Ain't about what?s waiting on the other side

It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing,

The chances I'm taking

Sometimes they knock me down

but No I'm not breaking

I may not know it

But these are the moments that

I'm going to remember most yeah

Just got to keep goingAnd I,

I got to be strong

Just keep pushing on,

cause There's always going to be another mountain

I'm always going to want to make it move

Always going to be an uphill battle,

Sometimes I'm going to have to lose,

Ain't about how fast I get there,

Ain't about what's waiting on the other side

It's the climb

It's the climb

Keep on moving

Keep climbing

Keep the faith baby

It's all about

It's all about

The climb

Keep the faith

Keep your faith!!!