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Saturday, July 10, 2010

my story... my poem...


They call her a Brave Girl
One they had never seen or heard
She sees everything with different eyes
With a different view of the world.

They call her a Brave Girl
Who can stand up for herself
She might want you but never need you
So u keep your sympathy with yourself.

They call her a Brave Girl
Who could change anything she wants
She can screw you hard
With her teasing taunts.

They call her a Brave Girl
Who always got everything she wanted
She knows how to move on, solving
Every trouble by which she’s haunted.

They call her a Brave Girl
Blindly believing what she shows them on face
Though the genuine thoughts n feelings
Are hidden somewhere behind her grace.

BUT, Today…
The Bravery of this Brave Girl
Has disappeared somewhere
The realistic view of life
Has changed to fantasies everywhere.

Inside she feels like yelling, crying…
But, the tears refuse to fall
This suffocation is troubling her
N she feels abandoned by all.

She raises her hand
In prayer for someone to hold her back
Who could take her out of the Dark
N get her life back on track.

She keeps shouting, crying, pleading…
For just one to protect her…
Jut one out of the whole world…
Cuz she knows that if They lose her…
No one would ever find another BRAVE GIRL!!!

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

"Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident."

-St. Augustine.

Friday, June 18, 2010


The first completely abstract piece of work by my mind... or heart... whatever...
it took me longer than ever to write this one... n at last, i wrote womething which my heart wasnt really saying...
Last evening, while singing my song
reflecting upon my journey
the soft breeze touched me hard
as if trying to speak of someone's heart
it all felt silent
lyk the silence before the storm
the breeze brought along
the aroma of a heart
i forgot my song
n stood mesmerised
remembering the aroma
n trying to forget it at the same time...

just when the storm took over
n it all got blurred
but i still stood
suprised at the beauty
beauty of the storm
n lull of the silence preceeding...

just when the sky got clearer
n so did the view
when all i cud see
was a heart emerging
out of nowhere in front of me
taking over every beauty
i had till then seen
the heart was the same
whose aroma the breeze had brought
n it took away my soul with it
rendering worthless everything I had got!!!

Saturday, June 12, 2010


Nothing was ever
the way i wanted
the gurt i got was
beyond all measures
But, i kept holding on...

Itrusted lyk hell
and was betrayed again
i loved again
n gained more pain
But, i kept holding on...

I put my thrust
but failed again
the efforts i put
all went in vain
But, i kept holding on...

I tried working out
the things that were wrong
n more i ve tried
the worse it has gone
But, i kept holding on...

I tried to clear
the clouds that were grey
couldnt ignore
evrything they say
But, i kept holding on...

I wanted to trust again
with all my heart
but despite my efforts
it all fell apart
But, i kept holding on...

Eerything i do
still seems wrong
but to keep the faith alive
i keep snging my song

Friday, June 4, 2010

No i wont giv up, no i wont break down... sooner than it seems lyfs turnd around... n i wil be strong, evn if it all goes wrong...

when i m standing in the dark i still believe... that SOMEONE'S WATCHING OVER ME!!!

Dont know why but i m desperately feeling this urge to write something really good... till i cum up with it... i would like you all to read some of my poems... one of which is...


One day, i ll be free
free to run away
to wake my dreams
and to stand my way.

One day i ll be pure
pure to speak right from my heart
not to hurt you with my words
and to leave all bygone things apart.

One day i ll be true
true not just to everyone but to me
to look at the inside of everything
and not just believe what i hear or see.

One day i ll be laughing
laughing to hide my tears
to hide the pain in my heart
that i would have gone through in the past years.

One day i ll be enjoying
enjoying the life of my own
just by trying to make everyone smile
no matter whether i am or not known.

One day i ll be happy
happy to be what i ll be
to do all the things i want
n to see the world as i wanna see.

One day i ll be living
living all the colors of my lyf
a lyf full of hope and peace
without any evil or strife.

One day i ll be the one
who i ve always wanted to be
who that is i still dont know
but atleast that ll be the REAL ME.

DISCOVER a new world of mine
with a new sun and the blue skies
and i ll be ready to RISE AND SHINE!

Thursday, June 3, 2010

They say that gud things take time... but really great things happen in the blink of an eye!

As i was happily experiencing every great thing coming to me... not really effortlessly, but unexpectedly... when suddenly, there came a flood of vibrations to me which seemed to convey something vry strange, sumthing unwanted... and they complicated everything that earlier seemed so simple... as i becum an observer to thE dramatic changes taking place around me... some things fallinig into place effortlessly, and others shattering even after utmost care... just decide to remain quiet and watch...

the following poem i wrote when i felt this way last tym... that was when it rained in the city last tym... n the coincidence is that its raining even today... the weather has brought back the same old feelings...


It was quiet a few hours back
warm outside and calm within
but now,
its stormy outside
and there's thunder in my heart!

the air seems to tell me something
something that's born within my own inner self
but couldnt find a way out to express
which now the weather seems to do.

the shaking of the trees
seems to be out my own frustration
the rain is the tear of my despair
the unusual storm is the uncertainity of my mind
that takes me forth for a moment
and drags me back for another.

i am standing near the window
since the storm started
looking for an answer
in the blues and the trees
but they all seem to be equally confused.

people are enjoying the weather
but "I" m busy observing
observing the cause of this sudden strangeness
that surrounds me in this familiar environment.

the storm gets wilder
the rain gets intense
deperate to express
my feelings and their emotions.

it feels strange
strange to see how
heavens can cry ini grief
and laugh in joy
i know not what the cause is today
my sense of judgement
this weather seems to destroy.

the feeling of despair
is grabbing me in its dents
the weather gives in to my unexpressed emotions

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

For YOU...

A few Inspirational lines i wrote long back... thought it would help a few of my friends today...

keep looking forward
dont go back
however u are
you are on the right track.

people might find u right
they might take you wrong
dont care what others say
you have to go a way too long.

the sun will rise everyday
and so will the moon
i know its not that easy
but u ll reach ur destination very soon.

so what if people dont cease to fight
so what if nothing seems to go right
the blues sky is always above you
and the sun still shines the same bright.

so what if u dont succeed today
so what if u dont get your way
u still have a long way ahead
to wake your dreams and to stand your way.

sorrows and happiness
are not both apart
its your attitude that makes a difference
and the purity of your heart

whatever you are
whatever u ll be
i ll always be there
to make things better for u,
u ll see!!!

Friday, May 21, 2010

Words don’t really seem to strike me right now but the feelings do which have forced me to write once again… not just for the sake of keeping the words flowing… but to really say something… which is out of my thought process… which even I don’t seem to understand… except for the fact that I just want to write!!!

It was just yesterday that I FINALLY got over with my exams… “so many shocks… n so many insults in just 2 months”… I bet we students deserve an award for the trauma we go through!!!

So, coming back to myself… as I finally step out from the traumatic period of 2 “long-long” months… I wanted to do everything I expected I will… n to begin with I got the movie tickets… my further plans included going to my friends… partying… sleeping… reading… in short enjoying my life to the fullest…
But I don’t know what It was…that struck me so hard yester night that took away all the beautiful thoughts from my mind!!!

I mean I no more felt like enjoying… all I needed and I still do… is perfect isolation…
From everything… from everyone… I need a moment of silence when I can just introspect and do nothing else… but the SILENCE around me seems to disturb the SILENCE that I want!!!
…Strange yet true!

Its not that I m being negative about anything… its not even that I m feeling super good… neither am I feeling normal… I am just feeling confused… confused about what is so confusing to me???...

What Is it that has held me so tight from being the way I want to be…
What is it that is stopping me from enjoying my life…?
I don’t seem to find any answers… and I don’t even think I really want to find them!
I just want to let be… but still want to change…
I feel like socializing a bit… but at the same time… feel lyk standing aside…
I want to uncomplicated… but am still complicating myself…
There is really nothing about which I should be thinking so… but still the confusion has taken a hold…!

I just hope I simplify myself soon…
And I wish you’ll pray for the same!!!

Friday, May 14, 2010

at this time as many of my friends are falling victims to this depression which i was facing a couple of days back... i want u all to read the following lines from a song call THE CLIMB... i drive strength frm it... i hope it helps my friends too...


I can almost see it

That dream I'm dreaming

butThere's a voice inside my head sayin,You'll never reach it,

Every step I'm taking,

Every move I make feels

Lost with no direction

My faith is shaking

but IGot to keep trying

Got to keep my head held high

There's always going to be another mountain

I'm always going to want to make it move

Always going to be an uphill battle,

Sometimes you going to have to lose,

Ain't about how fast I get there,

Ain't about what?s waiting on the other side

It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing,

The chances I'm taking

Sometimes they knock me down

but No I'm not breaking

I may not know it

But these are the moments that

I'm going to remember most yeah

Just got to keep goingAnd I,

I got to be strong

Just keep pushing on,

cause There's always going to be another mountain

I'm always going to want to make it move

Always going to be an uphill battle,

Sometimes I'm going to have to lose,

Ain't about how fast I get there,

Ain't about what's waiting on the other side

It's the climb

It's the climb

Keep on moving

Keep climbing

Keep the faith baby

It's all about

It's all about

The climb

Keep the faith

Keep your faith!!!

Monday, April 26, 2010


I received this mail from a frnd a few days back... and was terrified to read it...
i could have just mailed it to u all... and i even did... but i know that no on e really has enough tym today to read FORWARDED MAILS... especially wen it carries so much of the text!!!

pls go ahead...
This story is said to be True,But be warned it is NOT NICE!
This is a true story, it has been confirmed, the Medical Centre phonenumber at the end of this story is real..This guy went out on a Saturday night a few weeks ago to a party. He was having a good time and had a couple of beers and some girls seemed to like him and one invited him to go to another party. He quickly agreed and decided to go along with her. She took him to a party in some apartment and they continued to drink, and even got involved with some unknown drug.The next thing he knew, he woke up completely naked in a bathtub filled with ice. He was still feeling the effects of the drugs, but looked around to see he was alone. He looked down at his chest, which had 'CALL 000 or YOU'LL DIE' written on it with lipstick. He saw a phone was on a stand next to the tub so he picked it up and dialled. He explained to the EMS operator what the situation was and that he didn't know where he was, what he took, or why he was really calling.She advised him to get out of the tub. He did, and he appeared normal, so she told him to check his back.. He did. He found two nine inch slits on his lower back. She told him to get back into the tubimmediately, and they sent a rescue team over. Apparently, after being examined, he found out more of what had happened. His kidneys were stolen. They were worth $10,000 each on the black market. Several guesses are in order: The people involved had to be at least medical students and it was not just recreational drugs he was given. Regardless, he is currently in the hospital on a life support, awaiting a spare kidney. The University of Sydney in conjunction withthe Royal Prince Alfred hospital is conducting tissue research to match the victim with a donor. I wish to warn you about a new crime ring that is targeting business travellers. This ring is well organized and well funded, has very skilled personnel and is currently operating in most major cities around the world and recently very active in Sydney ......This is not a scam or out of science fiction novel. It is real. It is documented and confirmable. If you travel or someone close to you travels, please be careful. Sadly, this is very true. My friend's husband is a Sydney EMT and they have received alerts regarding this crime ring. It is to be taken very seriously. The daughter of a friend of a fire-fighter had this happen to her. Skilled doctors are performing these crimes! (which, by the way have been highly noted in the Brisbane area). Additionally, the military has received alerts regarding this. I REALLY WANT AS MANY PEOPLE TO SEE THIS AS POSSIBLE SO PLEASE BOUNCETHIS TO WHOEVER YOU CAN.

what i dont really seem to understand is that how can a person who has acquired the noble skills of a doctor be so merciless to commit such a sin... doctors are thought to be the avators of god.. our life-savers... well if this is what a life saver does... i dont think anyone would even feel safe admitting a dear i n the hospital next tym...
pls forward the text to as many as u can... nd save ur frnds and family... who myt becum the victim of such a scam in the future!!!
I ll be uploading more such stories... so please do checking in... and get AWARE!!!

Monday, April 12, 2010


It starts with one thing i dunno why...
i doesnt even matter how hard u try
keep that in mind i designed this rhyme
(remind myself how i tried so hard)
to explain i ndue time
all i know...
that tym is a valuable thing
watch it pass by as the pendulum swings
watch it count down till the end of the day
the clock ticks lyf away
its so unreal...
didnt look out below
watch the tym go ryt out the window
trying to hold on
didnt even knw
wasted it all just to watch u go...
i kept evrythng insyd
n evn though i tried it all fell apart
what it meant to b will eventually b a memory
of a tym when i tried so hard...

I had put my thrust in you
and pushd as far as i cud go
for all this
theres only 1 thing u shud know
i tried so hard
and got so far
but in the end
it doesnt evn matter
i had to fall
(taken frm IN THE END by LINKIN PARK)